Today I feel fine. I slept better than I have in about 2 - 3 months.
My alarm went off at 3:30am...I didnt get up to go to the gym though. Instead I stayed in bed, I curled up next to Jeremy's warmth.
Sometimes I want to rush life and rush things so that Im not late, rushed in getting to where I need to be; that I skip over the important parts.
I loved being able to cuddle him this morning. Smell his skin and appreciate all that he does for me, for us, for his future family.
I appreciate all that he puts up with and that I put him through(the normal sassyness, bad attitudes) And I am sorry that he gets the backlash of a bad workday.
I take things to seriously, too hard, too close to my heart. Things that I don't need to worry about, I do.
And he suffers because of it.
I owe my good nights sleep to Vicoden (Dont worry! its perscription) and Allergy medicine.
Sometimes I try to be Wonder Woman.
I hate taking pills, medicine, even vitamins (which I force myself to take everyday)
I would like to think that I can just get along in pain. Push through the pain...the evil fat girl inside my head says give up!
So I push through the pain.
Dont do that!
I was hurting.
My shin splints are bad; thanks to my horribly flat feet.
I wanted to ignore it, but with every step, every jump, every run I hurt more and more.
I have to take better care.
Yesterday was my 7th Day into my 30Day Shred.
Yesterday, my last Level 1 workout and it was HARD!
I have 23 Days to wreck shop! And SHRED!
Yesterday I wanted to cry!
I shed two tears thinking about how on my first day, I thought I was going to pass out!
Last night on my 7th day I didnt want it to end.
I wanted my last night of Level 1 to keep going. I wanted to workout my abs MORE!
I wanted to do more pushups!
I want more!
I want to SHED this fat shell that is holding me back.
I want to SHED this fat shell that makes me not want to feel sexy.
I want to SHED this fat shell that is holding back my smile.
I want to SHED this fat shell that keeps me from being flirty with my man.
I will SHED this fat shell.
This fat shell does not own me.
It will go and hide and never want to return again.
I will crush these next 23 Days.
Be prepared Level 2, tonight I am coming for you! And I will ruin you!
I made cauliflower crusted pizza last night. It was ok. I plan on perfecting this recipe to tailer our likes. But I say everyone needs to try it! So much healthier than flour pizza crust.
My OOTD (Outfit Of The Day)
Happy Tuesday yall!
Peace, Love and Shred!!!